Lately, I've noticed that I've been writing purely for the sake of having something written; not because I have anything worth writing. So, tonight will be to the point. I'm all written out. (is that gramatically correct?)
Today I: picked up an assload of scholarship forms from guidance, sent my letter to Ball State to be reviewed for Honors College, found out that most of the scholarship deadlines are Friday (whoops), and quit my job. No elaboration. I'm too damn tired. And I'm in a mood of complete shittiness.
And I have something to rant about as well, but I'll give the situation one more day to redeem itself and turn things around. If it fails to do so, all hell shall break loose.
And I can honestly say that this is the most ridiculous entry I have ever written. I'm becoming what I hate. A stop shall have to be put to that. Thankyouverymuch.
Good-fucking-night.
11:31 pm - 01.29.03
And another thing.
Who in the hell are those two band-obsessed dolts in my guestbook?
That kind of thing is odd, even to me. Never heard of them in my life.
And I suppose it doesn't surprise you that both messages came from the same IP address.
10:14 pm - 01.28.03
I suppose I should be staring at President Bush right now, writhing in disgust with the rest of America (the realist percentage, at least) as he gives the State of the Union address. But I'm not. I wanted to, but then again I didn't want to. I don't think anything he says is going to make things any better.
In my opinion, we've given Iraq and any other country that happens to be pissed off at us too much warning about what we're planning to do. Doesn't he realize that the more time he delays action, the more time they have to prepare for a counterattack? I don't support any military action at all, but if we're going to do it, why the hell are we waiting so long? Do you think we would have had Pearl Harbor if the Japanese had given us warning?? Abso-fucking-lutely not. Not to mention the fact that we're getting all up in their shit about possessing nuclear weapons when we've had them for years. All that does is label America hypocritical. And while we're at it, why not piss off North Korea and a few other countries? No way in hell they'd ever manage to oust us. After all, we are the most powerful country, right? (and no, I'm not being sarcastic at all. *hint hint*)
And to think I used to like Bush.
*steps off soapbox*
Anyhow. I think things are going to be better between Cliff and I. I can sense it. I haven't talked to him since before I wrote the previous entry, but I got a voice message from him this morning. I didn't notice it until 1:00, and it took me two different classrooms and three bathrooms before I finally found a place inside the school that gave me service so I could listen to it. (Nevermind that it happened to be by stealthily concealing the phone inside my hood as I wrote down Calculus notes.)
"This is just the loving boyfriend, calling to say that I love you and miss you."
Let me tell you, that made my whole damn day. After hearing that, nothing could have brought me down. I haven't talked to him at all today, but I'm not going to let myself get too worked up about it. I'm sure it has something to do with the availability of privacy at his house. So baby, if you're reading this, I love you and miss you too. Thank you for the message. I can't wait to see you again.
I finally made a dent in my financial situation for college today. I called Butler and the admissions counselor basically told me that I'd be wasting my time coming for an interview, since they don't offer graphic design at all, not even as a minor. So scratch the departmental scholarship I was a finalist for. I also talked to Ball State, and found out what I needed to do to apply for Honors College. I got my letter written to request that I be reviewed, and I'll talk to my counselor first thing tomorrow as well as see about getting any recommendations from teachers. If I can get into Honors College, I can stop worrying so much about applying for the smaller scholarships. (And no, I haven't done any of those yet. Shame on me.) Ball State will pay half my tuition every year, which would mean that I probably won't have to have a job while I'm in school. And that's a huge plus. So we'll see how things go. Keep your fingers crossed.
That's about all I can think of to update on for now, other than to thank Liz, who generously paid for a SuperGold account for GenDesigns.
All this luck is starting to scare me. Maybe not luck, per se, since there's no such thing as coincidences, but it's weird just the same. I'm used to getting shat on all the time. So I better go to bed before it bites me in the ass.
*falls on the floor and bruises ass while laughing at 'shat'*
No, I cannot keep a straight face when I see that word typed out. So sue me.
9:49 pm - 01.28.03
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